A message to God

I may sometimes give up on everything including my own life but there was never a time that you give up on me. I may sometimes rant how shitty my life is but you always give me numerous reason why my life is still amazing. I keep on breaking your heart again and again but your love for me keeps on getting stronger as days pass by. Thank you, Lord for everything you have given me. Whether I asked for it or not; the failures and success; the frustrations and hopes; the declined and the answered prayers. I am lifting everything to you because I know that you will guide me each step of the way. In times of stress, give me peace. I am not sure what will happen the coming days but I am keeping my faith in you. All of my dreams will come true in Jesus’ mighty name. Amen. 🙏

Zedd True Colors Tour Manila – August 8, 2015 <3

“All my life, one page at a time. I’ll show you my, my true colors
No I won’t apologize for the fire in my eyes. Let me show you my, my true colors, it ain’t no rainbow.” – True Colors

Last August 8, 2015, I was able to experience the Zedd Magic! Yes, after three long years of waiting, I saw him perform live. 🙂 The experience was just so magical. I cannot put into words how happy I am during that night. I’ll try to write it down here. 🙂 So please, bear with me if there are extreme words that I’ll use cos dude, ANTON ZASLAVSKI was AWESOME! ❤

Before that, let me introduce to you my awesome dawg, Zedd. He is a DJ/Producer/Musician from Germany. He had made numerous songs that is from the heart. Okay, I sound like a fan again. Haha! He’s been my favorite DJ since 2012. As a matter of fact, he was the one who made me realized how wonderful EDM is. 🙂

Moving forward, his concert was attended by 12,000 people. WOAH. YES! I feel so honored cos I am part of the history. The played most of his chart-topping tracks. My favorite was when he played Clarity, Beautiful Now, Spectrum, I Want You To Know & Straight Into The Fire. 🙂 Oh! He was so hyper. Yes. He’s smiling all through out the show. He is worth the wait. All the pain that i experienced during that night was super worth it! I was cyring, singing, dancing, screaming all the time. Hahaha! I can’t remember how many times I said: “ZEDD! ZEDD! I LOVE YOU ZEDD!”. :)) Or even, “YOU ARE SO AWESOME AF ANTON!” Hahaha! =)) He may not played  my most favorite song, which is Daisy, I was still so happy! VERY VERY HAPPY. 🙂 Seeing him in person. Just some few meters away from me. Ahh! He is really the master of visual effects! I swear!

Some of the photos of the event are as follows:

This moment made me cry a lot cos I know that he want us to know that his Filipino Dawgs will always have a special place in his heart. ❤

He wouldn’t be called Zedd for nothing 🙂

Forever my clarity ❤

Addicted to a memory 🙂

That night, my heart was captured by a man named Anton Zaslavski. 🙂

We cam. We raved. We loved.

This made me so emotional cos I know that the Philippines will always have a special place in his big humble heart. *cries glitters*

My clarity 🙂

Aside from entertaining his fans, I also helped a charity. He gave away 500 free tickets for those who’ll give donations. Awww. God bless his heart. He is such a great man. ❤

That night was definitely the best night of my fangril life. Yes, I am a proud dawg of Anton. That ain’t gonna change cos dude, we’re beautiful now. Haha! =) OH YEAH! PROUD TEAM ZEDD SINCE 2012! 😉

Thank you for everything Anton. If ever you feel alone or upset, don’t forget that your Filipino Dawgs are here for you. You made us smile. You make us feel so alive. Thank you for inspiring us everyday. Thank you for existing. Thank you for the music. Thank you! ❤

MANILA HAD SHOWN IT’S TRUE COLORS! ❤ UNITED FOR ZEDD!

500 Days of Summer – A movie that’s worth all the tears

“I dont actually feel comfortable being anyone’s anything, you know. Relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt.” 

—  500 Days of Summer 

Just last night, I was able to watch a movie entitled “500 Days of Summer.” At first, it was just a typical love story but before I watched it, I read some comments/reviews and accordingly to them, this movie is worth all the tears. Yes, I can certainly prove this statement. I am wrong when I said that it was a typical love story. It was a very heartbreaking story.

The story is about a boy, who’s hopeless romantic and a girl, who’s afraid of commitment. The boy believes in love while the girl doesn’t believe in hearts and flowers. A boy who’s very ordinary and a girl who’s extraordinary; one who’s willing to take a risk and someone who’s afraid of love; one who’s a soldier for love and the other one is someone who’s just looking for fun. So, the agreed to have the “new kind” of relationship nowadays…it’s called the “CASUAL THINGY”. Just like other casual relationships, they just have fun, enjoy each others company and of course, no commitment. No feelings involved. You can do whatever you want.

Unfortunately, the boy has fallen to the girl. That’s where the problem started. They kinda broke up. FO. For him, she’s his girlfriend but the girl doesn’t want to commit. I guess, we all experienced this kind of emotion. You are afraid of what you’re feeling because you simply don’t want to get hurt. You want to save yourself simply because you didn’t want to get your heartbroken again.

Frustrating as it may seem, the twist of this story was so painful. The girl who’s afraid to commit has been married to other boy. The scene wherein they talk to each other on boy’s favorite spot, it is so heartbreaking. 😦 “You know what sucks? Realizing that everything you believe in is complete and utter bullshit.” Yes, it was all BS as hell.

“People change. Feelings change. It doesn’t mean that the love ones shared wasn’t true and real. It simply just means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart.” 

Every start has it’s own ending. For every door that closes, there’s a window that will open. Though you are experiencing pain, fear and heartache now, do not forget that in the right time, everything will be okay. You’ll gonna see the sun. You’ll going to see that rainbow. Stay strong. 🙂 One day, someone will come to your life and make you realize why it didn’t work out with the one you loved first.

Just like Tom & Summer’s story, we cannot get what we want because it is not’s God’s plan. Believe that someday, someone will be there to appreciate you., to love you, to take the risk for you. You are worthy to be loved. In the most unexpected day & time, the right one will come. For Tom, it is just a start of another season…which is Autumn. ❤

Below are the top quotes that I like from this movie that’s worth all the tears:

“I’m trying really hard not to get hurt again.”

“I really do hope that you’re happy.”

“There’s no such thing as love. It’s a fantasy.

“People should be able to say how they feel. How they really feel, Not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouth.”

This movie is definitely a must watch and just please be ready for some tissues. 🙂

Have a great weekend!

All the love always,

ICIA x

That Place Called Baguio – Part 2

This is a follow-up blog during a trip to Baguio last April 2015. I know I posted it late but I’ve been quite busy lately. 🙂

On our second day, we went to the different tourist spots that the city is famous for. It was a very happy yet tiring day. We went up an down the hill, walk, take pictures, buy pasalubongs and walk some more. Thank you to our Kuya Manong Tour Guide (whom I honestly forgotten his name) cos he was able to surpass all the obstacles that we encountered along the way.

The highlight of this trip was when we went to Sition La Presa. Yes, a spot in Benguet wherein the famous and high rating show “Forevermore” was located. The road to La Presa was never easy. I swear, it was so scary and fun at the same this. I’ll discuss this on the next blog post. 🙂

Below are some of the photos that we had during our second day in that place called Baguio. ❤

Wearing my 1D shirt 🙂

Into the light of the woods

                                  Pleasing

           Cheers!

                                     smile 🙂

Igorota for that day

                       My eyes were relaxed

                at La Trinidad, Benguet 🙂

Kid at heart ❤

                              Family 🙂

                                       Family

Olan Family @ Baguio City 🙂

That Place Called Baguio – Part 1

Last April 9-12, 2015 our family was able to visit the “Summer Capital of the Philippines” which is Baguio City. It was my first time in that said city. And as a first timer, I am so excited to see the places which I only see on photographs. It was indeed a dream come true for me.

We departed early in the morning and arrived Baguio on the afternoon. It was a long drive. Yes, very long drive. Thanks to the new expressways that open which made the trip a shorten one. Hahaha! When I first feel the cold breeze, the first thing that I called myself was “SO, THIS IS BAGUO!”. Below are some of the photos that we had during our first day.

                           FAMILY ❤

                   Pine Trees of the North

                                 Tourist 😉

Feeling ko ako si Mace, wala nga lang si Anthony

YES, I AM A FANGIRL AND I AM PROUD OF IT

According to merriam-webster.com , a fangirl is defined as a girl or woman who is an extremely or overly enthusiastic fan of someone or something. These are commonly teenage girls who are utterly crazy of someone or something. Most of these are boybands, players, fictional characters, groups, celebrities, musicians, etc. So, are you a fangirl? Me? YES, I AM A FANGIRL AND I AM SO FREAKIN’ PROUD OF IT. ❤

A fangirl usually belongs to a group called “fandom”. These are people who have the same idols. They have different names to their group. For example, One Direction fans call themselves, Directioners; Ariana Grande fans call themselves Arinators; Justin Bieber fans call themselves Beliebers. Usually, the fans are the one who create their own names.

Social Media is the main tool/platform on where fangirls usually talks to each other. Through FB, Twitter, IG or Snapchats. Most of them have the same goal: to be noticed by their idol. A favorite, RT or follow would mean a lot. Most of fangirls have their internet best friend/s. At first, they are just someone who likes your posts then after they sometime, they are the people  whom you are constantly talking with. From strangers to friends to sisters to family. ❤ Shout out to all my internet besties 🙂 time will come when I’ll be able to see y’all and I am looking forward to that.

I am a fan of Martin Garrix, Zedd, Julian Jordan, One Direction, Katy Perry, Taylor Swift, Justin Bieber, Lady Gaga, Sam Smith & Bruno Mars. These people serves as an inspiration for me cos they all have this common thing in them: THEY BELIEVE IN THEIR DREAMS AND THEY WORKED HARD FOR THIS TO BECOME A REALITY. 🙂 They all started from the bottom and now they are all on the top!

Below are the words that I want to say to the two of them:

To My Martijn Marty Garritsen: 

Hello, Mon Amour! I would like to know to know that I am so freakin’ proud of you my baby boy! From nothing to something. You are such an inspiration to everyone. You taught me to believe in my dreams and to always do the best in whatever I do. You may be young but you have already lived your dream. Thank you for being my legend…my hero. ❤ I love you so damn much…so freakin’ much that it hurts. Hahaha! Come back very soon, okay? Hugs and kisses from Manila to wherever you are today*

To Zedd my Zeddie Baby: 

I want you to know…that I am here for you! I am so freakin’ excited to see you here in Manila! ❤ Thank you for every song that you wrote which gave me a clarity. 🙂 You’ve always shown your true colors and because of that, I am so freakin’ proud of you. I love you, Anton!

Life of a fangirl is never easy…believe cos I am one of them. 😉 I am a supporter at heart. ❤

Keep supporting guys! Cheers!

All the love always,

ICIA x

“That’s the thing about pain…it demands to be felt.”

Have you ever lost someone dear to you? Have you ever let go of someone you love because that’s the right thing to do? Have you ever lost yourself just to keep someone whom you thought are worth it? Have you ever been sad cos you have failed though you have given your best? Have you ever feel broken inside? Have you ever experienced pain in your life? If the answer is yes, congratulations! You are a real human.

According to one of my favorite fictional character, Augustus Waters from The Fault of in our Stars, PAIN DEMANDS TO BE FELT. Ouch. 😦 It is a sad and hurtful reality that always slaps us in our faces. Yes, it’s true. We should all experience pain cos it is a feeling that can always bring out the best and worst in us.

In my 23 years on existence, I can say that I have been through a lot. I’ve already experienced pain, joy, failure, happiness…I think I am who I am today because I was once a fragile girl who’s afraid of this big world. I do have regrets in life. I missed some opportunities that may not happen again and I  even let go of someone who appreciates me. Past is past and whatever happened, has already happened. I may not be able to rewind or repeat the exact moment but I know that I can always create a new one. 🙂

To those people who are currently experiencing pains in their lives right now, let me tell you something: That feeling shall pass. Yes, it will not be forever. Though you are on a storm at this moment, please do not forget that after that, you’ll going to see a bright rainbow. 🙂 Do not give up, God is with you. ❤

Life is a always a bitch but do not forget that you do have your packs who could be your allies on this fight. Stay strong.

All the love always,

ICIA x

I stand for equality

Every person has the right to love and be loved in return. It’s a fact that we should all never forget. It doesn’t matter if you have fallen for a man, woman or even on your same gender.

Finally, same sex marriage was legalized in all USA. This is the day that the LGBT Community is waiting for. All is fair in love. Yes, they are now free to get marry to their partners. Personally, I don’t think there’s wrong with this idea. As long as you both love each other and you’re both not hurting other people, it’s okay. You are free to love whoever you want.

Please don’t get me wrong. I am a Catholic and but I still stand for equality. So. we should stop all the hate and just spread and share love. I guess it’s to accept the fact that we are now living in a modern world wherein we are free do to what we want; as long as we are responsible for our actions.

To all the who’s going to get marry soon, good luck guys! ❤ You deserve it!

All the love always,

Icia x

It’s been a long time :)

Hello! I wasn’t able to post a blog for over a year now. Sorry, I became busy on my other accounts. How’s everyone? I hope you’re all doing good. I hope that you’re all having a summer to remember! 🙂

As for my case, yes, I did! I’ve been to different places, experienced their cultures and as well as I had the best summer party ever! I’ll post regarding this on a separate blog. 😉

Don’t forget to smile and be happy! Be a rainbow in someone’s cloud 🙂

Ciao! x

I will find you :>

 

 

 

Someday, somehow…I will find you =)